Thinking about the way you think...

Just last night I was in the office working till past 3am and had to be back in the office by 8am for a full day's work. Here's a snippet of some thoughts running through my head:

1) I wanna quit my job. Surely there are better ways to make money which goes on to next point...
2) If I married a rich tortoise, I won't have to work.... which leads to the next point
3) God, why did u send me here? (did I follow the wrong tortoise?? please refer to my hey shang xue le story which is not to be found on my blog and if ure wondering where u can find it.... ah ha! it's a mystery! some say it's good to be mysterious. but i won't be too mysterious cos it's quite sad if ure mysterious but nobody wants to find out about u which is why i would like to append a picture below but i haven't learned how to do it yet so...)
4) I'm so going to die sleep-driving home

Those are just snippets. Censored snippets to be exact.

Seriously, have u ever wondered what runs through a person's mind? If you just thought about what you think about, you'll be surprised at firstly the volume of thoughts, and secondly, the content of your thoughts.

Have you also wondered how it's possible to not gossip? I've tried not gossiping but if I think it in my head it's still gossiping what, albeit with myself.

I choose to believe that my words come from my thoughts so the only way to control my speech is to control the way I think.

So this morning when I woke up, I decided to practice something different, something i've not done before. I decided to choose the way I think:

1) Instead of 1, 2 & 3 above I told Him: God I don't know why u put me in my workplace but I believe u won't sabo me because u love me so help me through this day.
2) Instead of 4, I meditated on this verse: even if I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil, for your rod and your staff they comfort me. Trust me, when ure driving on the ECP at 7ish a.m. and there's a jam and ure like super groggy, u do feel like ure walking thru the valley of the shadow of death.

And i got thru the day with a smile and i would take a picture of it and post it here except....